create in me.

Have you ever had sin in your life and felt guilty for it as soon as it happened -- only to turn around and sin over and over again?

I have. And it's not a good feeling at all. I'm not really quite sure how I get there every time, but sure enough something creeps in, distracts my attention, and leads me right back to it. I was reading tonight for one of my classes and one of the discussions was about pacing yourself in how you speak through crucial conversations. Don't just blow up on somebody and then ask for forgiveness. It's important for us to think things through before we speak them -- I'm pretty sure all of our parents taught us that at one point or another. If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say it at all. Period. End of story.

This really got me thinking tonight... How many times do I say or do things without even thinking about the effect it may have on those around me? How many times do I feel the need to call out those around me and do the same thing myself? I'm not called to be the judge. In no way, shape, or form do I want to be that person -- that is ALL God. Too many times I say that, but still end up judging those around me. It isn't that I blatantly stand there and judge people all day; no, not at all. But rather, I judge inadvertently. It can be so easy to gloss it over and pretend like we're not doing it, but we are.

I need a change. I need more. I need life.
I want change. I want more. I want life.

"God, make a fresh start in me,
shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life...
Unbutton my lips, dear God;
I'll let loose with your praise."
- Psalm 51:10, 15
(the Message)

Create in me a pure heart, O God.
May my heart mirror Yours.