Hello there.
Today I started the first day of my last spring semester of college. After this spring I will not have another spring break. I cannot imagine life without one. And I'm pretty sure that when mid-March of 2010 rolls around I will be sorely disappointed. Or maybe not...
Maybe I will have landed my dream job, have fallen in love (which I've been wishing for quite some time now), and I'll be completely satisfied. Life has it's way of creeping up on you with surprises. Did I mention I LOVE surprises? Well, I do. Over Christmas break I thought a lot over the next year of my life: where will I be this time next year? who will I meet? what will I be doing? Of course I graduate next December and then what? Honestly, I've never really thought about where I'll be when I graduate, but I can tell you that I thought about it a lot over my break.
There are pro's and con's to moving back home to Atlanta... My parents live there -- rather, my support system -- friends, seasons. Yet, I have friends here too. I have a good job working in the Admission Department here at school and who's to say that they might/might not offer me a job once I graduate? But do I really want to live in Lakeland??? I've thought about places like Europe, Massachusetts, North Carolina... I guess anywhere that I think about has their pro's and con's. So, who knows.
And then there's falling in love. I think part of me has given up on the idea. Truly. It isn't that I don't want it, it's just that love has simply not found me yet. You see, I have this horrible habit of meeting somebody, getting to know them a bit, and then falling for them. And when I say, "fall for them", I mean that I fall deep into this idea that maybe someday they will wake up and see me there. Yes, me. Maybe they'll take note that I'm worth it. Of course love isn't easy, but it's certainly worth it. I've watched my parents and I can only dream of being in love like they are. I want to be noticed... but I'm finished on looking for it myself. When it's time, it will happen. It cannot come too soon.
So, however you may take this, I leave you with this charge (however church-y that just sounded!):
open up your eyes and see what's in front of you.
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2 comments:
Love it, baby, just love it. You write so well. Love WILL find you, you don't have to worry, and when it does, it will be worth the wait. I love you , believe in you, and want all the best for you. And did I mention that you are my favorite?
yes.
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