everything.

Hello again. It's been a while... I'm not sure how many actually read this, but for whoever you are I'm sorry it's taken me a while. Life has been busy and to say the least, I haven't really known where to begin. Forgive me if my thoughts seem a bit scattered. I'm feeling a bit like that lately.

I was thinking about what I wanted to write about -- there is so much to catch up on it seems like. Maybe I'll write about the most prevalent topic in my life at the moment: graduation. I'm going to be honest, I'm scared. But in the same breath I'm excited... and overwhelmed and nervous and have no idea what January holds. I know whatever it is I'll be doing or wherever the winding road takes me, it's going to be good. I know that because GOD is good. He is faithful and never once has He given me a reason to not trust Him. Ah, my heart is so full thinking about Him.

Last night I was able to be at a young adults service at a local church. There wasn't anything incredibly special about this Sunday night and to be honest I didn't even really care to go. I was moreso going to support a friend... but isn't it funny how the Lord can even stir a spirit like mine? I surely do. I'm grateful for it. Those moments present opportunities for Jesus to come in and speak sweetly, softly to our heart. You give Him a mustard seed to work with and somehow He turns it into a huge garden. I love that about Him. I do, I do, I do. Needless to say, I left that service refreshed and was honored with an desire to seek the Lord more than I ever have. This season of life is intimidating, but I know there is nothing that He doesn't already know... I hope this is helping you as much as it has helped me.

God is good. Holy. Just. Loving. Beautiful. Present. Majestic. Worthy.

Hillsong has found its way into my life this semester. It isn't that I didn't like them before, but their music has been especially helpful at this point... One of my favorite songs is "Take All of Me". If you get the chance, check it out. So here's the thing, I LOVE minor chords. I think they are incredibly beautiful and I tend to smile whenever I hear them. You may find it odd, but I do. Now that you know that about me, you'll probably be able to pick out my favorite part of the song. The end. No, not like that. It's just this part at the very end when they say, "I love you so and I give up my heart to say I need you so... You're my everything." The word everything holds a special place in my heart. There are only two moments in my life that I can distinctly remember that involve this word. The first being the Sunday morning when my boyfriend and I broke up. It was in between services at church and I was trying to be obedient to the Lord. So... I broke it off. That morning my mom had decided to do a song called, "Everything"... Let me tell you, that was all I had to cling to. That song will always hold a special place in my heart.

Let's bring this full circle. Jesus is my everything. I'm learning that even if I was to be single for the rest of my life, He would be enough for me. He's the only one that will never leave me. I can trust Him. He loves me... unconditionally. He finds me to be beautiful and lovely. So even in this time where I have moments where I feel out of place and I'm intimidated by "adult decisions" I'll have to make in the next few weeks, He's still there. He wants to know about my day. I love that about Him.

Ah, it feels good to be back. Sorry I've been hiding out for so long.

love&peace.